I made a deal with Allah at round about this time last November & so far I am very happy with the results.
As part of the deal, I was crystal clear with Allah what I want, and I was crystal clear that I don't have any energy to give him what he wants from me and asked him to provide me with that. I couldn't be happier with what he delivered. Energy and Zest for life. What more could I want. Now it's time to hold on to my end of the bargain but It is going to be hard, but hey, God never said that what he asks is easy. That is why life is a test.
This part of my life, I would call F5 (Refresh for the non-geeks reading this). Failure is a very interesting thing. It teaches you so many things, challenges your ideals.
For slogr, my biggest regret will be that I was not able to bring my A-game to the table with it, but working with my co-founder has taught me so many things which I wouldn't have been able to do otherwise. Unfair to him despite all his faith against all odds? I would say yes.
What do I want in the end, My failures and then making a deal with Allah and seeing its results, I can safely say I don't know really know what I really want. One thing I do know is that when Allah said "Pray, and I will give you what you want!", is spot on. Allah gave me things during the past year that I didn't know I needed or wanted and I am thankful for that.
At this point, I don't have a job, although there are a couple of lucrative opportunities that can materialize. however, I am really counting on the deal that I made with Allah. All that remains is an action item for me from him to take the next steps. Pray.